Ang buhay parang TRAPIK.

Ang buhay parang TRAPIK.

Madaming rason kung saan nagmumula. Minsan sa pagkakaroon ng banggaan, sobrang daming sasakyan ang nag uunahan na makarating sa paroroonan, kahambugan ng abusadong mga may-ari ng sasakyan, driver o kahit traffic enforcer ng daan na nagbubunga ng isang malaking perwisyo sa lahat ng nasa daan.

NaKAKA- bagot kung iisipin, nakaka-pang-init ng ulo, nakaka walang pasensya at nagiging dahilan ng samot saring negatibong isipan.. NAKAKA PAG PROVOKE NG BEAST MODE NGA NAMAN.
Parang byahe sa buhay ng isang tao nga naman.

Madaming taong nag-uunahan, walang nagbibigaya nat at lahat nagmamadali. Lahat may kanya kanyang gustong patunayan. Na nagdudulot ng mas mabagal na pag-unlad sa bawat isa. Lahat naglalamangan.
Pero siguro, depende na lang sayo kung paano dadalhin ang byahe ng buhay. Kung didibdibin mo ba ang negatibong bigat na hatid sayo o titignan na lang sa ibang banda ng kalsada.
Damhin na lang ang saya ng byahe ng buhay kahit may banggaan man o anu ano pang buhol buhol na trapikong mararanasan sa araw araw na byahe n buhay.
Ang mahalaga, nakakangiti ka pa at alam mong bukas, hihinga ka pa at may bagong umaga.
Na ang buhay parang trapik, mabagal man ang pag-usap, MAKAKARATING AT MAKAKARATING KA PA DIN NAMAN SA PAROROONAN.

KAPAG BINATO KA NG BATO, GAWIN MONG STEPPING STONE

KAPAG BINATO KA NG BATO, GAWIN MONG STEPPING STONE

-by unidentified flying mind -

" Madaming version ang thought na KAPAG BINATO KA NG BATO. Some says, Gawin mong tinapay, some says BATUHIN MO DIN! Some says umilag ka na lang, and some says, BARILIN MO or pasagasa mo sa pison, but for me? I guess the best line to complete that line is 

KAPAG BINATO KA NG BATO, GAWIN MONG STEPPING STONES"

This is really is it, that finally everyday i was getting the answer inside of my head why everything on the past few days was not really good. The odds is not on my favor. I know that I am trying to be better but why is it like that, why I felt that the whole wide world is against me?

But as the days goes by, I'm slowly reflecting again myself. I am only against myself.

It is bound to happen because i need fuel, i need to bring back the passion, somethings are really meant to happen for you to wake up again, for you to be motivated and be inspired about your dreams and goals.

I need to prove myself again, and in order to do that, you must have to go back at the rock bottom and the only way you only have is to go up.

I want to say sorry to that person, because I got mad at, but i guess, that person just made a tough decision, and yet, i want to say thank you because that person gave me my freedom again.

Thank you for setting me free, and I'll use that freedom to do everything just to bring back the glory that was been lost to myself 2 years ago. I do what it takes to be the leader again, because not only I want to, I deserve it and I am born to be on that way. FU group of companies will still happen do or die.

I just figured out that I've been lost for so long, trying to figure things out, and funny that from unexpected person gave me all the answer. You became GOD instrument for me to know what I really want to my life and who I am.  I am alive again. I want to be an inspiration, to change the world, sound crazy right? haha, to lift up someone else life, to be the best sample of being independent strong woman and to stand up, after you fail so many times in life. Someone became my refelction, I got to know myself more that when I really want something to happen, if i commit, I justify it.

Probaly, as of the moment, I can say that i am now missing that person everyday, thinking about that person, I really feel that person is still inside of my heart. but we really have to go on our own way so that we can find our way home, but because of that someone, because of the pain that I've been true, a lot of people threw stones, I have learned not to put care about those negativity, to stand up, to be brave becuase I KNOW MYSELF BETTER THAT THE WAY DAY DO. They just know me by my name, not my story, and I do not need their validation as well. My favorite line? KAPAG BINATO KA NG BATO, GAWIN MONG STEPPING STONE. That person just  woke me up that I am losing myself for the past few years and now, I have to be wiser to stand up, and bounce back higher than before, might as well be the person that I should, THE BIGGER PERSON. A person that that should not be distracted on small problems and never fail to stare at the BIGGER PICTURE.

What i want to do? Family first, achieved my goals and dreams and be a better person. I've been shaken but i never collapsed. No matter what I do, I can say that someone still plays a big part of my heart, we lived on different skies by the next few months tho.

I really want to say sorry to my Family as well, that i've hurted them because of my wrong doings, but all i can say is that GOD is so great for redirecting my life again, and right now, I have to be myself again.

Someday, mga january, mapapa status na lang ako.

TAMBAY KA TALAGA NO? KASI HANGGANG NGAYON, NAKA-TAMBAY KA PA DIN SA PUSO KO.

Aani ng likes yan, pusta one million dollars, just kidding.

One of myt close friends have told me, there are times that you are thinking that you are looking someone just to fit on you, but then, later you're figured it out that what you really looking for is yourself, your reflection, and I guess, I found myself again.

And I found myself that i want to travel, explore, enjoy freedom that God gave to me again, ito na yun, I still feel complete, contented, happy single because when you are married, you definetly cannot do those crazy stuff, just like what i've done. I bet, you can not do those things! Wala ng tatalo sa mga kabaliwan kong nagawa sa buhay ko.

Those stupid things that i know when I got old will make me laugh out loud. I'm going to say to my future kids, " YOU KNOW WHAT  YOU'RE DOING RIGHT NOW? BEEN THERE!!"

I really do not know what will be the ending, or should I say, is there any ending? But i should not expect, what I haveto do is to be brave, life is adventure, a journey that you must have to enjoy, and that is what I'm doing. Cherish the moment because time flies so fast, people change and you must have to learn to save your ownself.

No matter what you want to do, how many things you planned, GOD always have the better one, you just really have to put trust on him.

To be honest, I quentioned him so many times before, WHY?

But everyday, he is giving me the answer, JUST WAIT AND SEE MY PRINCESS.

Thank you for all the love babauinin ko yan sa pupuntahan ko.

Right now? I am now preparing for another adventure, creating oppurtunity.

Bye Philippines, will be back soon :)

Maybe this time, laba won't end.

MAYBE THIS TIME, LABA WON'T END.

                MAYBE THIS TIMEEEEE, love won’t end.
                Mga tugtugan habang naglalaba.
                Habang inuunat ang mga braso with full blast effort para matanggal ang mantsa sa mga damit ko.

                Bigla kong naisip, ang pag-ibig parang paglalaba.
                Kahit gaano pa kaganda ang isang damit, dadating ka sa tagpong mamamantsahin pa din yun, at para bumalik sa dating ganda, kailangan mabasa ulit, masabon, matanggal ang mantsa, mabanlawan at masampay ulit, kailangang mainitan para BUMALIK SA DATING AYOS, BUMANGO AT MULI MONG MASUOT.

                While washing my clothes, there are millions stuff inside of my head.    

                Anu nga ba ang formula ng succesful na paglalaba?

                Ilan drum ba ng tubig ang kailangan mong ibuhos?

                Ilang sabon ang kailangan mapudpod?

                Ilang hagod ba sa brush?

                Ilang fabric conditioner ba kailangan mo ilagay para bumango ulit?

                at Ilang pagbabanlaw ba ang dapat gawin para muling masuot ang isang napakagandang damit?

                Hindi ko alam kung masusuot ko ba ulit ang isang napakagandang damit na yun o may magbibigay ba saking bago,o hahayaan ko na lang na may ibang ng humingi sakin nun pagkatapos ko malabhan, pero alam ko sa sarili kong yung damit na yun ang pinaka-paburito kong damit na nasuot sa talambuhay ko.

                Kasi habang suot ko yung damit na yun, nag-iba ako.

                Pakiramdam ko, ang lakas lakas ko.

                Nuong suot ko yung damit na yun, pakiramdam ko ako si Supeworman at never ko na-imagine magiging matapang ako para suotin ko siya. Na alam kong ginawa ko lahat para masuot siya. na Proud akong suot siya. Na nuong sinuot ko yung damit na yun, nagbago ako, gusto kong ayusin mismo ang sarili ko, para lang maging bagay akong isuot siya.

                At ngayong namantsahan yung damit na yun, ang napakagandang damit na yun, di ko alam kung kailan ko ulit siya masusuot, o kung maususot ko pa ba?  

                Sa ngayon, ilalagay ko muna sa isang napakagandang Cabinet ang damit na yun, iingatan ko, babaunin ko ang ala-alang minsan sa buhay ko, may nasuot akong isang napakagandang damit.

                Na minahal ko yung damit na yun, na higit pa sa pagpapahalaga ko sa ibang bagay sa buong mundo.

TAMA NA NGA, may modelling class pa ko, kailangan ko munang magsuot ng ibang damit,  literal na damit dahil basang basa na ko ng pawis.

                :)

You're invited on Batang Hamog Party

          " Gimme, gimme, gimmmmmmme!" Kung pipikit ka talaga, aakalain mong nasa loob ka ng bar/club tapos may earthquake. Malakas kasi power trip ni Manong Driver eh, puro party songs! may ilan sa mga katabi ko naman ay dedma, iba nakayuko sa mga cellphone, at yung iba naman nakapikit na and I didn't know if they were imagining that they're inside of a bar or just fell asleep that time, nakatulog sa katang Oppa Gangnam Style? bago yun ah! 

          Swabeng- swabe lang ang byahe, kahit may pag ka - 25% ang trapik, kalma pa din. Hindi mainit, hindi malamig, sakto lang! nang biglang may mga batang madudungis at nagsi-akyatan sa jeep. Kung sosyalista or conyo ka? Siguro mapapa - " DON'T TOUCH ME EWWW! YOUR HANDS ARE DIRTY DUH!" ka talaga,  pero hindi yun ang nasa mata ng mga taong kasabay ko, parang pinag-halong inis, awa at tawa sa pinaggagawa ng mga bata.
           Same routine, akyat jeep, abot envelope, konting kembot, kanta-kanta, end of the show na tipong tugmang- tugma pa duon sa ambiance ng jeep na party songs at talaga namang party-party sila habang umaandar ang jeep. kanya-kanyang reaksyon ang mga tao, ang mga tulog, dumilat ang mata! Ang mga nakayuko sa mga cellphone nila, aba'y napayakap sa kanya kanya nilang bag at ang mga deadma,
napa - " AY NAKO BATA!!! GUMULONG KA!", di ko alam kung concern ba sila or what? Pagugulungin sabay abot piso ganun?
             Bilang ka ng 3 minutes, pagkatapos magka-gisingan ng diwa sa mga kaluluwa naming nahihimlay gawa ng mga batang walang magawa eh nag-ka-abutan na ng barya (akala mo illegal na transation lang eh no?), bababa na daw sila, may konting pag-thumbling pa sila bago buaba sa jeep, at si manong driver? Na pa Pu#$^*& na lang talaga.
                After that scenario, there's one thing that you really have to see on the other side.
               AWA? they're all still young, doing that dangerous thing just to have money and they don't have any choice, or should I say, they don't know the choices? But to do that just to survive. If you're going to analyze the other side of the story, stare at the situation vividly, you will realize na maswerte ka pa din talaga, na may cellphone ka, alam mo an pasikot-sikot sa facebook, twitter at instagram, at higit sa lahat, nasusuot ka pa ng maayos na damit at nakaka-kain mo pa nag gusto mo. Pero pinipili mong tumunga-nga, magsayang ng oras sa wala at higit salahat? mag drama dahil di ka pinansin ng crush mo at kung ano-ano pa, samantalang sila, walang makain pero nakakakapag-party party pa din. Kaya kapag nalulungkot ka? Ito tandaan mo... " YUNG IBA NGA WALANG MAKAIN!" 
                 Luto na ang meryenda, kain na nga muna ako.
           
  

Thrill of Attraction, kakagat ka ba?

         There go! Makulimlim ang hapon, di mo mawari kung uulan ba o magiging ganyan lang magdamag? dahil sa hapon pa ay di na muna masyadong traffic papasok sa opisina. Usual! Iba-iba ang taong makakasabay mo; may galing sa school, sa trabaho, mukhang may ilang biblhin lang sa kanto at meron din naming parang aattend ng debut hahaha! Bahala na kayo mag-isp kung ano itsura ko, basta may damit.
          There are times when you’re traveling alone, mapapatingin ka sa katabi mo, mapapa-isip ka, especially kung mag-isa lang yung tao, tipong kapag mukhang huggard eh mapapatanung ka kung “Anong klaseng tao ba to?” pero kapag mukhang fresh at ang bango-bango mapapasabi ka na lang ng “ Saan kaya rarampa to? “. Siguro totoo talaga yung kasabihang may gawin ka man o wala, kahit ano pang itsura mo, huhusgahan ka pa din, pero di naman ata  panghuhusga ginawa ko, pagtatanung lang, curiosity?
          Tentenenentenen!! Ito na, may isang Unknown Mystery guy ang pumara sa jeep. Matangkad, gwapo at ang bango-bango, or should I say, mukhang mabango? Unang tingin mo pa lang ay mapapa- “UY!” ka na. Madaming nakatangin kaagad sa kanya, siguro lahat yun napapa-isip ng “Who’s that guy?” pero ako? Sa iba ako nakatingin!! Duon sa babaeng katapat niya, maganda kasi, medyo matangkad at simple lang, pero di dahil sa natotomboy ako hah!
(Pero di ko din alam? May identity crisis pa ba din ba ako?).
          Siya kasi yung tinitignan nung Unknown Mystery Guy! On that moment, there was single phrase inside of my head, and that is “ Thrill of Attraction”. When we say (base on my perception) that word means you saw a person on a very first time at nakapag-create kaagad sila ng interest sayo to know them.
          Thrill - cause (someone) to have a sudden feeling of excitement and pleasure.
            Attraction - a quality or feature of something or someone that evokes interest, liking, or desire.

(Salamat Google!)

          Na kapag pinagsama mo? Boom! There it is! There’s a lot of people ang nagogoyo ng “ Thrill of Attraction”. Sabi nila, LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT, pero paano mo naman mamahalin ang taong di mo naman lubusang kilala? Duon na papasok ang Thrill of Attraction, na kapag na-attract kasi tayo, madaming dahilan pero umpisa lahat yan sa outer feature ng isang tao, kesyo maputi, matangos ilong, matangkad, singkit at may killer smile na umaasa tayo sa ganda ng labas na kaanyuan eh baka ganun din sa pangloob? 

            Nakaka-relate ka ba? Iba kasi talaga kapag tinamaan ka ng ATTRACTION, there are times this is the cause of TEMPTATION that’s why there are some relationships na kapag mahina ang immunity system niyo sa ganyang bagay ay end of story na (Pwera na lang talaga kapag nahanap niyo na si THE ONE niyo) Kaya madaming na-heheartbroken eh, makakita lang ng gwapo/chicks sa kanto, mahal na nila agad, pag tinanung mo “ Bakit mo siya minahal?” .. “ Maputi siya!”
Aba’y it is not LOVE! It’s DOVE! , na kapag nakilala na nila, they’ve realized na hindi pala yun yong ugali na hinahanap nila or di sila gusto at pinapahalagahan nung tao, they’ll be rejected, nasasaktan na sila. Sinisisi pa yung nasa kanto! Hahahahahah! Some people still staying, fighting on what they believe, instead. However, some people just stop and move on, madami naman daw kasing tambay pa dun sa kanto.
To be honest (wala lang gusto ko lang mag-share) Nabiktima na din ako niyang “Thrill of Attraction” na yan, duon sa tambay sa kanto! (Joke!).
I think that guy is perfect, matangkad, gwapo at may perfect smile. 
I wanted him to be the guy who will love me, that’s why I almost do everything, I enjoyed the chase, the thrill, the attraction, but sooner or later, just realized? It was so non-sense. That person is not the person‘ve created into my head to be the person that will be. May gumanang hormones lang sa utak ko na akala kong nagpagana sa hypothalamus ko.
Feelings faded, the attraction? It’s gone afterwards, na tipong kapag nakakita mo na yung tao ngayon na papa kamot ka nalang at sabay sabing
” BAKIT NGA BA NAGUSTUHAN KO ITO?”.

There are certain rules whether you’re single or in a relationship.
FOR SINGLES:
 We’re into finding that perfect someone, perfect beauty, ntelligence and personality then after the long search, we find ourselves falling helplessly with someone whose not even half of our ideal person, we’d always end up not with someone we want but with someone we can’t resist falling for
And for those people who are in a relationship?
            There’s a possibility that a person can get attracted to another. It’s human nature, It’s not wrong, but that is why you’re in a commitment, you discipline yourself. One may get attracted to numerous prospects and it’s okay as long as you don’t nurse the feeling and do something about it. BORDERLINE, between cheating and faithfulness. Recognize reality that you already have the person that can give you more than what you get for the THRILL of ATTRACTION. Itayo ang bandera ng mga LOYAL!


Teka, teka! Lalagpas na ata ako sa babaan ko.
Next time ulit mga katoto! :)