KAPAG BINATO KA NG BATO, GAWIN MONG STEPPING STONE
-by unidentified flying mind -
" Madaming version ang thought na KAPAG
BINATO KA NG BATO. Some says, Gawin mong tinapay, some says BATUHIN MO DIN!
Some says umilag ka na lang, and some says, BARILIN MO or pasagasa mo sa pison,
but for me? I guess the best line to complete that line is
KAPAG BINATO KA NG BATO, GAWIN MONG STEPPING STONES"
This is really is it, that finally everyday i was getting the answer inside
of my head why everything on the past few days was not really good. The odds is
not on my favor. I know that I am trying to be better but why is it like that,
why I felt that the whole wide world is against me?
But as the days goes by, I'm slowly reflecting again myself. I am only
against myself.
It is bound to happen because i need fuel, i need to bring back the
passion, somethings are really meant to happen for you to wake up again, for
you to be motivated and be inspired about your dreams and goals.
I need to prove myself again, and in order to do that, you must have to go
back at the rock bottom and the only way you only have is to go up.
I want to say sorry to that person, because I got mad at, but i guess, that
person just made a tough decision, and yet, i want to say thank you because
that person gave me my freedom again.
Thank you for setting me free, and I'll use that freedom to do everything
just to bring back the glory that was been lost to myself 2 years ago. I do
what it takes to be the leader again, because not only I want to, I deserve it
and I am born to be on that way. FU group of companies will still happen do or die.
I just figured out that I've been lost for so long, trying to figure things
out, and funny that from unexpected person gave me all the answer. You became
GOD instrument for me to know what I really want to my life and who I am. I am alive again. I want to be an
inspiration, to change the world, sound crazy right? haha, to lift up someone
else life, to be the best sample of being independent strong woman and to stand
up, after you fail so many times in life. Someone became my refelction, I got
to know myself more that when I really want something to happen, if i commit, I
justify it.
Probaly, as of the moment, I can say that i am now missing that person
everyday, thinking about that person, I really feel that person is still inside
of my heart. but we really have to go on our own way so that we can find our
way home, but because of that someone, because of the pain that I've been true,
a lot of people threw stones, I have learned not to put care about those
negativity, to stand up, to be brave becuase I KNOW MYSELF BETTER THAT THE WAY
DAY DO. They just know me by my name, not my story, and I do not need their
validation as well. My favorite line? KAPAG BINATO KA NG BATO, GAWIN MONG
STEPPING STONE. That person just woke me
up that I am losing myself for the past few years and now, I have to be wiser
to stand up, and bounce back higher than before, might as well be the person
that I should, THE BIGGER PERSON. A person that that should not be distracted
on small problems and never fail to stare at the BIGGER PICTURE.
What i want to do? Family first, achieved my goals and dreams and be a better
person. I've been shaken but i never collapsed. No matter what I do, I can say
that someone still plays a big part of my heart, we lived on different skies by
the next few months tho.
I really want to say sorry to my Family as well, that i've hurted them
because of my wrong doings, but all i can say is that GOD is so great for
redirecting my life again, and right now, I have to be myself again.
Someday, mga january, mapapa status na lang ako.
TAMBAY KA TALAGA NO? KASI HANGGANG NGAYON, NAKA-TAMBAY KA PA DIN SA PUSO
KO.
Aani ng likes yan, pusta one million dollars, just kidding.
One of myt close friends have told me, there are times that you are
thinking that you are looking someone just to fit on you, but then, later
you're figured it out that what you really looking for is yourself, your
reflection, and I guess, I found myself again.
And I found myself that i want to travel, explore, enjoy freedom that God
gave to me again, ito na yun, I still feel complete, contented, happy single
because when you are married, you definetly cannot do those crazy stuff, just
like what i've done. I bet, you can not do those things! Wala ng tatalo sa mga
kabaliwan kong nagawa sa buhay ko.
Those stupid things that i know when I got old will make me laugh out loud.
I'm going to say to my future kids, " YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING RIGHT NOW? BEEN THERE!!"
I really do not know what will be the ending, or should I say, is there any
ending? But i should not expect, what I haveto do is to be brave, life is
adventure, a journey that you must have to enjoy, and that is what I'm doing.
Cherish the moment because time flies so fast, people change and you must have
to learn to save your ownself.
No matter what you want to do, how many things you planned, GOD always have
the better one, you just really have to put trust on him.
To be honest, I quentioned him so many times before, WHY?
But everyday, he is giving me the answer, JUST WAIT AND SEE MY PRINCESS.
Thank you for all the love babauinin ko yan sa pupuntahan ko.
Right now? I am now preparing for another adventure, creating oppurtunity.
Bye Philippines, will be back soon :)
